Saturday, October 16, 2004
Even the blogger is making a fool out of me. Typed out a post, a long one i supposed and it didnt came out. what the hell wrong is this?!
Jerry's out for good. thank goodness. Christopher, please improve. Because i think you're really cute. Stop with those high screeching voice, it made my hair stand. It really did.
Thanks Wendy and Amanda for the great company at the mall yesterday. Well, i didnt lay my hand on another VCD nor did i bought Alicia Key's album.. mainly because, i couldnt find it or amanda talked me out of it.
Instead, i rented a Nicholas Sparks Book. " Nights in Rodanthe" Oh mann. Nicholas is just one romantic guy, at least for me. Just look at those " Oh, so charming" type of words he writes.. it's so cool. And i wanna write like him!
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I think i'm blurred. Really blurred.
It's like.. i do not understand what you're thinking, mum. You're just ever so unpredictable. Just what do you want from me?
Alright, not that i blame for going to work on the day i'm supposed to be out with my cliques.. but didnt you just said 24 hours ago that i was able to go out and not look after jx?
I know it's unfair for jx, but sometimes, i just feel there's just something going on between me and jx. Jealousy, perhaps. I dunno myself. It's like.. why should i even look after jx if she's so unappreciative of me? what's the point of showering so much care for her when she doesnt remember it at all? Damnit.
You guys may say " Afterall, she's your sister."
Yes, i know. i know i'm responsible for her.. but why isit that jx comes out from the subject and prevent me from going out because of her. Damnit, i dunno what i'm talking about. But really, dont mind me. I'm just feeling frustrated with everything. Especially myself. I do not understand why i have those thoughts.
Is it because of you, i ask myself.
10/16/2004 01:07:00 PM/ i know what you want to say
